Taking Stock of My Life

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Today is my 39th birthday. For the past few weeks, I’ve been meaning to write down for myself where I have been, and where I want to be. I don’t necessarily want to physically be somewhere else, but I do feel a restlessness to make changes. I’ve been doing a lot of wondering if this is all there is to life, or if I can improve things.

Every day, and especially at night before I fall asleep, I have visions of other things I could be doing, and ways to improve my life, as well as my daughter’s, and always have business plans swirling through my head. I wonder what I should do, and what I can do.

Also always on my mind is that my daughter has 2 years of high school left, then she plans to go off to college. She’s even picked one that has a major related to what she wants to do: be an ASL teacher, preferably in high schools. I can’t be prouder of her decision. I am sad that she plans to leave me, but glad that I have provided her with a good Porte of the skills she will need in her life. Now, if I could just get her to focus on learning to drive, everything would be great.

When I look at my life now, I have to say it didn’t turn out the way I thought it would when I graduated from high school. Then, I had plans to be a teacher or a journalist. I suppose I could still do that, go to college and pursue a real degree. I’m just not sure, as then, that is what I really want to do when I grow up. I know, I’m a grown up now, but that doesn’t mean that my life and dreams are not evolving. There’s still time to make changes, as long as I am not in my grave.

So, here is to my 39th year, and hopefully progress by my 40th.

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