I know we all have people in our lives, whether they are friends or family members, that are so wrapped up in themselves and their lives that they ignore other peoples’ pleas for help, or even a request for an ear to bend. It is still disheartening when your friend or family member says “I’m here if you need to talk,” and when you try to reach out to them, there’s no answer or response.
I’m worth so little to you, that I am just to be ignored, yet in your time of need, you expect me to be there and to provide support. I think I’ve been much too generous in the past, and that’s going to have to change. What’s that phrase, “quid pro quo?”
I’ve been asked several times why I don’t have friends, why I don’t reach out when I need help, why I’m always alone and lonely. Why? Because the people who promise to be there for me pretend that I don’t exist unless they want something from me. Eventually, I just stop trying to get help and attention, and just hide my pain, my suffering, my true inner thoughts. Or, I spill them out like this, for everyone to see, because if the people that are supposed to be close to me and supposed to care don’t, why should people that don’t know me be any different? The response is the same either way.